Initially it was Ewan McGregor on the cover who caught my attention. Yes, he's cute, but I was curious about what the article with him was about. As I flipped through looking for the article, a different article distracted me and I stopped. It was about model turned rapper/actor Tyrese Gibson and how he turned his life around after gaining weight and becoming unhealthy. At the end, he quotes Will Smith, who was one of his positive mentors.
"You might have more talent than me, you might be smarter than me, you might be sexier than me, you might be all of those things. You got it on me in nine categories. But if we get on the treadmill together, there's two things: You're getting off first, or I'm gonna die. It's really that simple."
YES. Change the treadmill to the dance studio and you have me. As an "older student" coming to the dance world with no more than social and street dance under my belt, I have to work hard for what I want. I mean HARD. What I'm doing is not easy, physically, mentally or emotionally. I'm trying to learn what most of the girls have done since they were very young. Training a 28-year-old (when I started this adventure) body to do these things is quite a task. I understood this going into it, so I'm not complaining, just stating the reality.
My point is, I feel that because most of them have spent the majority of their lives dancing ballet, modern, jazz, etc., they take for granted what we learn and do in classes, rehearsals, auditions. They take for granted what they can do with little effort (or so it seems). It is as if they do it on autopilot because its all they know. Is the passionate conviction there for them? I'm not always convinced, and some days I'm very doubtful. Some days I want to point blank ask each girl, "WHY are you here? Really. Why?" I know why I'm there. Everyday, as I work to get my body to stretch just a little farther, to turn my legs out just a few more degrees, to point my feet just a few more centimeters, I know. I'm conscious, I'm present, I see the goal in the distance.
So yes, ladies, you may have more skill, more talent, more beauty, and you may have youth on your side, but I must and will show up in that studio and dance, or risk dying inside. What about you? Quitting is not an option. What about you?